Music Monday: Help Me Find It – Sidewalk Prophets

6652e8ffe624f821baea1726756fdb7fIt’s easy to go about life, sometimes feeling like you have no clear idea of what you’re supposed to be doing. What the bigger picture for your life is. And sometimes, when you think you know, something is thrown into your life that turns it all around and upside down.

When my husband and I would talk about this “pending deployment” (now a current deployment), I couldn’t help but feel like the ground under my feet was falling away from me. Any sense of security was gone. All those plans we had, put on hold or wiped away altogether. And I felt like I was left standing alone.

What I’ve come to realize is that I’m never alone. Yes, I’m lonely (who wouldn’t be with their best friend 1/2 way across the world). But lonely is not the same as being alone. My husband is there for me as much as he can be, however there is someone else I can rely on. Someone else that I should rely on. Someone else that I should trust with the most intimate parts of my life.

I’ve had a lot of questions in my life since this deployment was first mentioned in our home – which means there has been a lot of questions in our home for almost two years now. This deployment was on and off so many times I’m still dizzy.

I still don’t have all of the answers, but I feel called to speak openly about the challenges of being both a military spouse and an LEO wife.

My message is for those that feel alone. My message is for those that feel misunderstood. My message is for you. Some people might not like what I have to say…sometimes the truth is very painful to hear.

This song has always brought me comfort, and I hope that you find comfort in it too. If there is a road you should walk, He will help you find it.

I don’t know where to go from here
It all used to seem so clear
I’m finding I can’t do this on my own

I don’t know where to go from here
As long as I know that You are near
I’m done fighting
I’m finally letting go

I will trust in You
You’ve never failed before
I will trust in You

If there’s a road I should walk
Help me find it
If I need to be still
Give me peace for the moment
Whatever Your will
Whatever Your will
Can you help me find it
Can you help me find it

I’m giving You fear and You give faith
I giving you doubt
You give me grace
For every step I’ve never been alone

Even when it hurts, You’ll have Your way
Even in the valley I will say
With every breath
You’ve never let me go

I will wait for You
You’ve never failed before
I will wait for You

If there’s a road I should walk
Help me find it
If I need to be still
Give me peace for the moment
Whatever Your will
Whatever Your will
Can you help me find it
Can you help me find it

I lift my empty hands (come fill me up again)
Have Your way my King (I give my all to You)
I lift my eyes again (Was blind but now I see)
‘Cause You are all I need

If there’s a road I should walk
Help me find it
If I need to be still
Give me peace for the moment
Whatever Your will
Whatever Your will
Can you help me find it
Can you help me find it

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